The bdsm baby blues

There’s a few things about parenting that are taboo conversations. These conversations usually revolve around the not so glamorous sides of parenting.

Feelings of isolation can happen with new moms in my experience. From what I’ve observed its something we go threw but don’t want to talk about.

Regardless if you’re vanilla or kinky parenting can be lonely.

For me it’s been a double adjustment, because I had to move back in with my mother for the time beimg I’ve had to be discreet with my kinks and d/s.

My big has offered to stay home sometimes so I can go out to kink events. I miss them and I think he is starting to notice.

Most of the time I am good at accepting that this is my new normal. However today as I scrolled threw social media it hit me. I miss my kinky friends that I know in real life.

I am greatful for my little friend who comes over when she can, and my other kink friends who helped out during my pregnancy and such.

I know I can call them any time and they’ll come over and hang with me and the family.

It’s not the same though.

There’s a certain energy about being at a play party that is hard for me to put into words.

I’ve tried fitting in with other littles online and while I’ve formed a few friendships most people I’ve run into seem to be a bit molded to fit some stereotype that isn’t me.

In the end I just feel more different and lonely than when I started.

I think tomorrow I’ll get back on fetlife and setup a carpool with a friend so I can at least attend a munch and be more than a stay at home mom for an hour or two.

Who knows, maybe I will meet some other kinky moms and we can have vanilla mom meetups by day and attend kink parties by night.

At the very least it’ll give me a chance to catchup with old friends.

For amy kinky parents reading this, if you’re out there, you’re not alone.

I am here and we’ll get threw this together.Wicked Wednesday... a place to be wickedly sexy or sexily wicked

Advertisements

13 thoughts on “The bdsm baby blues

  1. Pingback: Elust 115 - elust

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s