Hey all, it is the middle of the night here and I just realized that I haven’t written a post today. I was busy you see. First, when I got up it was really early. I was craving my leftover chocolate cake. I quietly crept to the kitchen and figured one little piece wouldn’t hurt. I knew my big would have a conniption if he knew what I was doing but him and my kitties were asleep so I thought I was all good there. Anyway, there I was minding my own business listening to a youtube video threw my bluetooth earbuds. in the kitchen while the rest of the house slept. I walked over to the refrigerator and opened it slowly. I reached my hand in and grabbed the plastic container my cake was in. “Yes! I got it!” I thought to myself. “No one will know that I had a small piece then I can go back to bed and pretend nothing happened.”
I closed the door to the fridge and at the same time the plastic container slipped out of my and and fell strait to the floor. It made a really loud sound and the cake went icing first onto the floor. I bent down to pick it up making a last minute decision that if the icing and the cake went on the floor I wouldn’t eat it but otherwise that cake was mine. I picked up the cake and the icing staid on the floor. While I was doing this my big ran into the kitchen thinking the cats got into something. That’s when he caught me red handed ending over a pile of chocolate icing trying to explain myself. it didn’t work for me.
After that fiasco my day was pretty normal except for the fact that I played in an online poker tournament that I won at! I got 150000 dollars! Now only if that was real money….
I digress though, I’m here to present to you guys day 23 of 30 days of d/s.
Today talks about d/s breakups. I’ve had a few d/s breakups some have ended up well and others…… Not so much.
Allow me to explain: I’ve mentioned my pet in a previous post but that was my first d/s relationship. Even though we were just friends it still counted as a d/s relationship for us anyway. We were owner/pet for a few months but had to part ways in the end because it was online and I was going off grid for the summer and he started to develop feelings for me. I was nervous about the breakup because I thought he would hate me and be angry as ever. To my surprise though he was fine with it. And like I’ve stated in the past we still talk from time to time so I guess you could say that ended well. It probably ended so well because we were just friends.
I’ve also had d/s breakups that didn’t end so well. In all of them though I liked to look back on the situation and see what if anything I could have done differently and practice lots of self care. I was always the dominant in my previous d/s relationships excluding this one. I can’t speak for what it’s like for a submissive to breakup with a dominant. I’ll say one thing though, breakups suck vanilla and d/s alike. I’ve gone threw some pretty tough vanilla breakups and I remember thinking the world was over. I thought no one would love me, I messed up the relationship, I had no purpose anymore, and if I kept praying perhaps he would come back to me one day because we belonged together. Why couldn’t he just see that we belonged together!…. I was a mess after most of my vanilla breakups. I’ve seen submissives go threw the same thought processes first hand. It’s normal to have these thoughts, breaking up is a grieving process and it takes time to heal. For those of you going threw a breakup just remember, it’s not the end of the world, you will find happiness again, and don’t stop drinking water/ eating because you will get threw this. Take some time to pick up on some old hobbies you’ve neglected, keep busy with friends and a good support group and try to hang in there. It gets better I promise and when it does you’ll realize where your other relationships went wrong and why your new one is more healthy or better for you.